I Found Bliss In Ignorance -Linkin Park, One Step Closer
Before anyone starts scolding my ass on the first part, what I wrote on there was very sad but also very true. I can’t believe I took 8 aspirin yesterday over what had actually happened, which, in turn, is my fault, but still, I take full responsibility for what I wrote, whether I want to explain or not. So, please forgive the raw emotion I put into the first part of the post, but also remember the reasons why I said what I said earlier. My life ain’t worth fucking up over what is my damn fault. If I’m such a scam artist, then why can’t I just be hired to scam the Republicans out of their selfish shit? That way, they’ll feel what George felt when I scammed him, and only then will they work as janitors for the same schmeasly motherfucking minimum wage we’ve had for years. Am I right? But, then again, it’s still my fault for the dumb shit I put everyone through, and…..this damn dose of my own medicine is at its bitterest right now, that, honestly, I’m getting the worry that I’m going to be stuck in the damn house all damn day until a miracle happens, like I get struck by lightning, and the lightning breaks my leg, for instance. If I believe that there’s going to be a next time for me and him……I better think again, to be honest. There’s a fat chance for a next time. And then there’s the sick feeling of staying home all day for the rest of the week, except for dog walks and mailbox checks, after I get or had gotten fired, which is probably what happened yesterday. Lemme not think about stripping for $100s and shit; that is senselessly useless. Nobody wants me to be a stripper in community college, so, fuck it. That ho shit is out the list. I need to find something more beautiful than this dumb trouble I’m in so I’m able to get out of it, once and for all. Right now, I can’t explain how much of a stupid bitch I am. I just fucking can’t.